written June 21, 2010
It's become clear that there is a dastardly net of the wiles and schemes of the enemy over the bride, especially over leaders who carry an anointing for healing or new man-new marriage, or creativity and joy. The net has been thrown over these ones for long duration, in terms of years, bringing troubles of all sorts to their families, including serious health issues, financial issues, relational issues. Troubles upon troubles to their loved ones and themselves, until all their time and attention are spent trying to solve these problems, with seemingly no end in sight. And when they sleep there is no real rest.
These leaders know how to go deep into the cavern of God's heart in their hearts and they know how to fight with the right weapons, having experienced many wars and won many wars, but these troubles are such that they wrench the roots of their hearts, and hit the fiber of their lives.They exhaust all the avenues of prayer help and all the weapons of war, such as standing on scriptures, praying, praising, declaring, repenting and forgiving. Yet the attack is so insidious that the very fiber of their lives begin to fray at the seam and they begin to change. The way they change no one can blame them. When it's their sons and daughters and grandchildren, and husbands or wives, whose troubles and pain would not go away,and there is no break, no solutions in sight, and the pain is not only physical, but mental, emotional - they begin to change in such a way they are not aware of.
They can still carry on their ministries, and their prayer still is powerful and anointed, but inside their heart of hearts, they begin to lose their joy. They begin to carry worries, day and night, it seems, and from worries they slip into tinge of anger and tinge of bitterness, tinge of being sour, which they quickly push down deeper because it won't do for leaders to be worriers and hostile people. They guard their tongues, or try to. To people they minister, they are still so right on and strong. But their exchanges with their families may carry barbs and suspicion and put-downs and defensiveness. Most of all, they are tired, so very, very tired. And the passion for Jesus seems so hard to sustain.
Oh but they are leaders! Much depend on their faithfully standing on the wall and praying for their region, their city, their nation, their church, their loved ones. So they continue to minister. When they are leading a prayer meeting, the anointing is still there, and they are still seeing and hearing, so doing ministry is a respite from worries and other negative thoughts. But once they are alone, the weight of their tiredness is over them like a blanket. Where is the peace and joy and lightness and freedom that are their rightful inheritance? What is going on? Where have they gone off? They search their hearts and guilt and condemnation snake in and out of their thought and emotional life.
Some who were healed of cancer and other major diseases supernaturally are told that these diseases seem to have come back. This round they are not up to contending for their healing. Still believe in it, and still praying for themselves and others who ask their help, but somehow they are not the same "wild horses" anymore. The fire seems to have gone out of them. So they do what everyone does - they set appointments and get tests and scans and prescription and their schedule is filled up with doctors' appointments. However, the problem is the doctors seem to dig up more possible health problems. The prescribed medicines pile up, plus side effects. And that wonderful thing called intimacy with God seems to fade into the background, put on the back burner for better days when they will have time, lots of time, to spend with the Lord. But not right now because there's so much distractions.
There is a film, a black film, a fog, a mosquito net, whatever it is called, over the bride, so subtle, so insidious, so dastardly. The enemy knows that just by stealing our joy in the Lord, and what God calls "rest" (Hebrews 4), he can render the bride to be ineffective. How? By putting in the place of joy and rest his offerings - guilt and condemnation and sadness and works, lots and lots of human efforts (striving) and good intentions and figuring things out. He knows his time is short, and the bride is rising up to be the trained partner of the Lord who knows how to exercise the power and authority He has given to us. This is so key to the bride's well-being. So the enemy's plot is to sabotage us all by wearing us out, zapping our passion, our focus, our hope and joy.
I have more to write, as He has been speaking of marvelous antidotes. Some leader friends and I are exchanging information and wising up to the net that is over so many. Some are getting the breakthroughs now or some are seeing some breakthroughs. This one is not so easy to break free from because it involves the fiber of our lives - the who-we-are-in-Him and the Who-He-is-for-us. Praise God He is exposing it. Your prayer is very important for the bride, especially for those in leadership to be set free from the "snare" the enemy has set for us and our loved ones.
