A new (old) project to do for the Lord

written October 28, 2012

We serve a God who dictates time and season. Even as the election is in the next 10 days, this is the time He is reminding me to write my next art book. What?!  Listen to this!  On June 3, 2005, I wrote in my journal which is the first entry of my Out of the Wilderness, My Journey through Cancer and Cancerous Lies, book: "as I sit here by the ocean with my journal and Bible and pen, numbed and bewildered by the diagnosis of breast cancer, my spirit is hearing Him speak about a second art book He wants me to write...It would be about how to paint small animals, butterfly, crab, fruits and vegetables with childlike freedom and joy. What does this book have to do with my plight with cancer? I sensed Him answering thus: Jean, this book will be all about life. It is a celebration of life.Do you see why the enemy, Satan, wants you to focus on cancer and death?  It is because you are about to receive from Heaven the fragrance or 'nard' for life and life abundant. Every word, every stroke will bring down Heaven's fragrant 'nard' of life...Catch a whiff of the fragrance and you will catch Heaven's desire to impart life and life abundant...You have the power to write the book that speaks life and life abundant. You have the authority to command life and life abundant to come forth through the words you write and the paintings you paint. Life pulsates out of your words and your paintings as you live life abundantly. I am living inside you, and as you move and have your being in Me, My life will pulsate through you." 

It has been seven years since I wrote those words. For seven years I did not sense His anointing to write this second art book. In due course, I came to wonder if He was actually referring to my last book, Out of the Wilderness and not to an art book. I even considered taking that first entry out of my book.

Two weeks ago as I was getting ready to put together another art book with pumpkins, rabbit, fruits and vegetables for the use of a workshop I am doing in Fallbrook in a couple of weeks, I could not sleep all night. As I was restlessly prowling around the house, I took out my Out of the Wilderness book and started reading it. As I reread June 3rd entry and several more entries where He talked about the art book that is to bring down Heaven's desire to give life and life abundant, I knew that the time is NOW, because it is a prophetic word from seven years ago, asking me to do a prophetic act that is for this time, not only for our lives, but also for our nation.

In a month, December 1st, I will be doing a whole day workshop on healing at the Pasadena International House of Prayer (PIHOP). Today, end of October, they are having the national directors of Healing Rooms do a workshop on healing.  My session is the next in line. I said to God, "Are you kidding?  What do I have to say about healing!"  I believe He is saying, "Plenty!" It won't be about training people to pray for healing, but it would be to share on the stance of the bride of Christ to combat the spirit of infirmity - how she embraces life and life abundant, how her mind is being transformed into the mind of Christ as she thinks on whatever is true and lovely and beautiful and excellent and praiseworthy.(Philippians 4:8) - all that He has been painstakingly speaking into me in the cavern of my heart tucked in the cavern of His heart. Please pray  for me so I will not be distracted. 

An interesting God-news.  My one and only copy of a paperback bound book of  The Rising Up of the Warrior Bride of Christ, A Prophetic Journey, which was hidden from me for many years, is on its way to the federal penitentiary, to be read by a brother in the Lord who is in total solitary confinement for 20  some years and not allowed to have any communication with the outside world except with his immediate family. The Lord has been visiting him and speaking to him and transporting him out of the walls of the prison to do His assignments in different parts of the world - yes, much like Philip who was transported to the desert to minister to the eunuch who was studying the book of Isaiah. He is starting to paint, and his ex-chaplain who is not allowed to write with him, found my website and ordered my book so he can learn about prophetic art. Pray that this book will reach his hand in good time (normally it would be two months before he gets his mail). Pray for the release of the anointing of these painting-words to come upon him. Perchance there be a transference of the prophetic anointing that was on me to him. Amen!    

 

Hallelujah! one more upgrade adventure!

written October 8, 2012

Had no idea that my making it to the Aglow National Conference in Ontario (almost 2 hours away from SD) this past Friday and Saturday would be so critical to my cough/no voice syndrome plus receiving a key word for all of us. He is an amazing God!

Each of the last three adventures - to Pasadena International House of Prayer (PIHOP) to speak on creativity and joy, to the Chinese fellowship in Glendale, and the unplanned trip to the Aglow conference with me still coughing and unable to speak - were "dire straits," or narrow paths that were risky and so uncomfortable, except that by God's grace I stayed on course. Now I already see in my spirit that the fruits, the rewards are HUGE. Thank you for praying for me to make these trips and not to say "No" to God because they are not sensible or smart. Thank God! Thank God! Thank God!

Quickly, about the cough and the loss of voice syndrome. When I rose 10 ft. tall as the fearless warrior bride to speak to my fellow Chinese in Los Angeles, and my voice came forth from my belly full of the Holy Spirit, I really believed that the cough would go away after my talk and my voice returned to normal. But it was not so! I continued to cough and to have no voice. I was miserable and disappointed. In the days following my cough got worse. My every thought was about my symptoms. How could that be when I experienced His miracle at the fellowship? It's not just about the cough and no voice, it was really more about all the prayers from the saints and the faith and the conquering spirit in me that triumphed over circumstances and sickness. The detective part of my spirit knew something was amiss. What was it!  The night before the trip to Aglow conference I could not sleep. I said to God," What hapened to me, God? How did I go from a 10 ft. tall warrior bride to a victim-like person? What went wrong, God? This was not supposed to be my story."

Then the Lord showd me what really happened after my talk: I got careless and from there went into pity party and worry.  I was miffed at God for not healing my cough and voice. That opened the door for the enemy to whisper to me, "Poor Jean! You even had to teach your classes when you had no voice because you needed the income. So sad. Look at your circumstance now - you no longer have the option to be sick anymore. Is God really taking care of your needs?" I woke up to the ploy of the enemy when I could "hear" what he was really saying to me and I was agreeing with. Quickly I asked God to forgive me and I put everything back into His hands - cough, no voice, tiredness and whatever His timing was for healing me. I even began to thank Him for the cough, knowing that He would turn everything to good, even the cough.

On the last session where Graham Cooke spoke, because of my cough(where I have had to run to the restroom due to the coughs), I chose to go to the overflow room where there was practically nobody but me. As Graham began to speak, he chit-chatted with us. Suddenly, out of the blue, I heard him say,"Yeah! Yesterday I felt my voice come under attack. I said to myself, Well, when the enemy attacks my voice, it must mean that he is deadly scared of what I am about to say."  Just like that, I knew the why of my cough and the loss of voice. I knew it has to do with my speaking on the ancient Chinese written words!  The enemy tried to stop me from going to the Chinese fellowship to speak, but failed to do so. That is nothing compared to what God is showing me about the Chinese characters (in C.H. Kang's book on The Discovery of Genesis) that has to do with the creation of the WOMAN out of the rib of the MAN, and the ensuing life of companionship of this woman and this man. I already know He is about to show me something so key, so fundamental about MARRIAGE through those characters our ancients had invented about the life of the TWO humans in that garden. So many characters were about TWO people, not three, not a group, but always, TWO humans. I actually have been waiting to get done with the three out-of-town assignments so I can hide away and listen to Him showing me about the Garden marriage through these characters. It will be a part of  the NEW MAN-NEW MARRIAGE He wants me to write on.

Now hear this. After the Graham Cooke's session, I walked out to meet up with streams of people coming out of the auditorium.  I ran into Pastor Mike Hubbard from Oceanside. We stopped and talked for a few minutes.  He asked me a strange question. "Jean, can you help me out?  I am going to Fuzhow to speak to Chinese men about marriage. I need to have some Chinese characters about marriage."  I looked at him and said, "Interesting you should ask. I am about to write (a book) about such Chinese characters ( which will cast light on God's thought on marriage)"  I know that Mike does not know about Kang's book on Discovery of Genesis, How the Truths Were Found Hidden in the Chinese Language." He just wanted some Chinese calligraphy written for him. But this is what the enemy is scared of. To this day, in China, women are still minority and are abused and mistreated by their husbands, even Christian men. It is culturally acceptable. The enemy cannot afford for me to discover what God wants to show me, and for me to write His revelation down and to share with my readers who pray and also with Mike who is going to China to teach and retrain the Chinese men in their thinking about women and their treatments of their wives. It is important that we identify the ploy of the enemy and expose him, because it renders null and void his wile and scheme against us. 

I want to write so badly about what Graham shared on UPGRADES but it will have to be another report. But let me just slip this in for now-please know that upgrades from God for His people are super important in this day and time. Every time we release all of our fears and worries and anger and bitterness and discouragement and low self-esteem, etc.etc. to God, really, really let them go into His hands, the Holy Spirit is free to give us upgrades from the Father for our lives. Upgrades come from our standing between God the Father and God the Son as they converse and love on each other and we get to receive their joy and peace and thoughts and plans. The Holy Spirit just smile ear to ear as He keep us in that position of love. Also, He gets to take us on adventures to do mighty deeds with Him and for Him.

My eyes are opened now. What I have shared with you in these three emails are my choosing to release my fears and worries to God and the resulting UPGRADES or adventures or creativity and joy I got in return. They were 10-fold, 40-fold, 90-fold kingdom rewards or fruits. It is so important that more and more of God's people release every single one of our worries and fears and issues to Him, even name them one by one, and drop them into Jesus' lap, and not go back to take them back into our own hands again. Then and only then, when we are free to receive His love, He can give us our upgrades. Oh the joy of going into adventures with Him, and bringing back so much fruits!