Entering into His rest concerning our finance

August 15, 2011

Two days ago, as I sat on a high bluff in front of the Pacific Ocean listening to the waves, with my eyes closed, I was so aware of my friendship with God. For so many years, more than eighteen, I have sat with Him there.  Our friendship has been forged through fire and water.

As I am writing this email,  I know that Peter and I have come through another huge testing in the arena of finance.  You see,  the down-to-earth threat is that when Peter's unemployment checks stop in a few months, and if he still cannot find work, we may no longer be able to make the heavy mortgage payments which will lead to the loss of our home of 40 years. The fabric of our lives as to my teaching art in our wonderful art room, as well as Peter publishing my books and prints in our home office, and the many years of housing our house church where so many have come and are still coming to eat and worship the Lord together, all that will be gone.

BUT GOD...Since the beginning of this year 2011, the Lord has instructed us to daily declare Psalm 91 over ourselves and our home.  Through Psalm 91 He promises us that His faithfulness will be our shield and rampart and that no disaster will come near our home.  In fact, He commands His angels to guard us in all our ways as we learn to take power and authority over the devourer and the enemy's lies, in the name of Jesus and by His shed blood.  He says that because we love Him and acknowledges Him, He will answer us when we call out to Him for help.  He will deliver us from troubles and honor us and show us our salvation. This is not written lightly. Over and over we are being trained and tested on this. Do we believe His word in Psalm 91?  Do we trust Him?  Is He Who He says He is - Jehovah Jireh (the God who provides) and Jehovah Rapha (the God who heals)?  He asks us to enter into rest as in Hebrew 4. He invites us to to live in His Garden of Rest (reference His Garden  at http://www.jbrushwork.com/, book section). Can we rest when the whole world is falling into economic woes and disasters of all sorts? How can we find rest when we are sitting on the brink of possible loss of our home? Yet, both Peter and I are truly coming into our rest regarding our financial quandary. Our spirit is learning to say "Yes, Lord, we will rest. We choose to rest."

I am sharing this because this training is coming to all of us. The bottomline is that He's got to train His bride now to keep our eyes on Jesus and to walk on water. We are all in the school of the overcomer.

As I sat there at the bluff by the ocean, I opened my journal and began to re-read the notes I took of Graham Cooke's teaching at the Aglow conference in Ontario on July 9th this year. (see "You have lost your first love" July 28, 2011 on my blog http://jeanshenart.blogspot.com/ or the journal section of my website or read Graham Cooke's book, Prophetic Wisdom). As I was pacing on the bluff wondering how to get it, that is, Graham's teaching, suddenly I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to take courage and say to the Lord, " You painstakingly carved those truths on Graham Cooke's heart which brought him to live profoundly in Your rest, without even one worry in the last so many years. That man has gone to live in the Garden of Rest and he has not left, and that's what I want, Lord. You gave me the book His Garden, and You are sending me out to share the story, but I still have unrest in my own heart. Lord, I am desperate for Your Holy Spirit to transport those words of Graham Cooke into my heart so that I too, like Graham, will truly live in the Garden of Rest and never leave it again."

I sense that He was pleased with my request and that this was His response: "I have been doing that in you for many years now, dear Jean. Many, many years. You are simply being processed differently from Graham. But the goal is the same for you and him and all my other beloved ones who delight in Me. I am calling one and all to enter into My Garden of Rest. There lies your hiding place, your shelter from all storm.  It is also where I will walk and talk with you in the cool of the day as in the Garden of Eden. Do not fear. Remember, all things are possible with Me.  If I ask you to do something, it means  I will empower you to do it. There is no other way you can do it but by My power.Take heart and trust in My faithfulness to provide for all your needs."

What it's like to live in the position of "first love"

July 26, 2011

In July, 2011, I went with six of my paintings to exhibit at the West Coast Aglow Conference in Ontario, California, not knowing that this was set up by the Lord for me to hear Graham Cooke speak.  As soon as I heard him speak, I knew God wanted to tell me something critically important for my own walk with the Lord. On the second session, Graham was addressing "You have lost your first love," and that was when I knew I had lost my first love.  Only, the way Graham Cooke used these words in Revelation 2:4, "You have lost your first love" concerning the church in Ephesus, it was different from how we normally hear it  - a scolding that we no longer want to serve God as passionately as when we first become Christians.To illustrate what "first love" really meant, Graham had four people come on stage, one to be Father God, the second one to be Jesus. These two stand facing each other. The third person is a woman representing the bride of Christ and the fourth is the Holy Spirit.  He placed her in the middle of Jesus and the Father. He had the Holy Spirit stand behind her.

The term "first love" is the love that exists between the Father and the Son from before time.  When Jesus returned to Heaven He sent the Holy Spirit to be on earth to usher the bride into the space between the Father and the Son. When we stand in that space, we receive the first love that flows between the Father and the Son unceasingly going through us. The Father loves the Son and the Son loves the Father. They are unceasingly speaking loving words with each other.  We, standing between them, get to be the recipient of the flow of their love one for the other. We are privileged to hear their conversations with each other.  The Holy Spirit's job is to stand there behind us to help us stay in that space of the flow of their first love.  Anytime we believe the lie from the enemy that we are not worthy of being in that space between God the Father and God the Son, but we must work for it, we move out of that space of first love. (Revelation 12:10b, "For the accuser of our brothers, who accuses them before our God day and night..." The enemy works day and night to rob us of our rightful place in the embrace of the Father and the Son through subtle religious lies, which unfortunately comes through many performance church teachings.

The year that cancer was found on me was both the most difficult year of my life and yet the highest level of living as the beloved of God.  In that one year of keeping a journal of every exchange of words between God and me, I went from a scared human being to being an overcomer daring to fight cancer with God's word and full of the joy of the Lord.

You see, the words I wrote down from Him to me in my journal during that cancer year which are now in my book Out of the Wilderness were amazingly loving and powerful.   I always wondered how come He could love me into being healed of cancer.  I never had treatments and the doctors said they were sure my lymph nodes were all infected and I did not have a minute to lose in getting chemo and radiation treatments. In fact, part of the strain of cancer was aggressive. Yet I am alive today because the Holy Spirit ushered me into that space between the Father and the Son and for a year I was bathed and washed in the first love of the Trinity.  It is now seven years and I am alive and still testifying of His healing power.

A friend wrote me a few days ago that she is rereading my Out of the Wilderness book, only this time she is using it as a daily devotional. She shared that she is getting to know in her spirit the person of God as Jehovah Rapha and Jehovah Jireh (the God who heals and the God who provides) and that every word speaks to her spirit.  I am glad she is doing that. I know now that every word I wrote during that one year was written from being sandwiched between God the Father and God the Son, with the Holy Spirit beaming at me.

The Lord brought me to hear Graham Cooke because He wanted me to know that I did experience and live in that first love for several years, but gradually through repeated attacks from the enemy to discredit my healing I began to grow weary. I fought back hard and continued to stand for my healing but it did take a toll on me. Read my blogs http://jeanshenart.blogspot.com/ or http://www.jbrushwork.com/html/journal.html to see several reports I wrote last year to alert people that the enemy was hitting leaders especially hard to bring them into sickness and weariness of spirit.  When I wrote those reports I did not know I would also get hit.

I had suffered from chronic heart palpitations for many years, but got healed of it when I was healed of cancer. In the last two years as the wiles and schemes of the enemy raged strongly against my mind, emotion and body,  I began to forget how it felt to live in His Garden of Rest, how to sit on the lap of Jesus, how to enjoy being in the position between God the Father and the Son where I was loved unconditionally. I had opened the door to receive packages from the enemy telling me how unworthy I was to be painting for the Lord. Subtle lies upon subtle lies snucked into the door of my mind. No more did I see myself as the beloved of Jesus with the beautiful gown of incredible lightness and the slippers I could dance in. I started to carry a sack full of urgent cares, fears and griefs of all sorts, and I was beginning to believe it was time to go be with the Lord. So tired. Heart palpitation came back to me with a vengeance. Last week I was put in the hospital to get an angiogram done as the doctors were quite sure that an artery must be getting narrower and I would need to have a stint put in. To their huge surprise, the surgeon exclaimed, "Her heart is as clean as a newborn!"  Ha Ha!

Last night as I was in between consciousness and sleep, I heard the word "the supremacy of Christ."  I knew that the Holy Spirit was alerting me to rise up and fight to stay, to abide, to remain in the position of first love. Just as His Garden is a state of mind and heart, and sitting on Jesus' lap is to return to childlike faith and trust, I must guard myself from giving in to lies of all sorts which he uses to rob and steal my inheritance and destiny, especially the lies that I am unworthy and third class citizen. I have learned that step first step toward losing the Garden in our hearts is to allow the cares of the world - worries, fear, stress to grow subtly over our hearts like weeds.We must declare the supremacy of Christ over all things in our lives and render null and void threats and intimidations he uses to undermine our position as His beloved.  In taking authority over every single lie of the enemy (take time to identify the lies one by one) we will gain strength in knowing that we are the beloved, because indeed Christ lives in us, the hope of glory.