"A Call to Fight Fear and Arise and Shine! For Our Light Has Come!"

     April 9, 2013

My last email to some of you was such that it may have worried you about my well being.  I am sorry I had to write that email.  It was very hard to be that honest. But I checked with the Lord, and He needed me to be real about what's happening to me and to a lot of His anointed vessels who are under such devious attacks of such long duration.  A friend who is a leader of the army said to me last week, "I have never seen the level of attack go as high as what the enemy is doing now to God's people.  He is not just out to kill us,  He is doing it in such heinous ways to make His faithful warriors suffer way, way almost beyond what we can bear." (words to that effect).

Such as a few weeks ago I discovered a pretty good size lump where seven years ago it was an aggressive cancerous lump. Did cancer come back inspite of God saying to me that I would never be ravaged by cancer again? Or did I really hear God? This would be the third try of the enemy in the last seven years to push me into great fear. For a week I felt the fear of cancer seeking to enter me, and knew that no matter what I must not to give in to it. If I allow fear to enter, it would sweep my emotion away and it would be very hard to hear His voice. One night when fear wanted to flood over me, I declared scriptures until I heard the words, "Jesus is not concerned." (this refers to the story of Jesus sleeping on a boat in a storm and the disciples were in great fear, but Jesus was not concerned.) Peace came over me instantly. When I went for examination the next day, my doctor  told me it was scar tissue that was submerged under the flesh, which felt like a large lump.

BUT GOD!  I see God sending outrageous words to His people at the same time that the enemy seems to have his way and prayers seemingly are not getting answered. Many seasoned warriors are experiencing this double reality of the enemy's unrelenting oppression and at the same time receiving timely revelations from God as if He is not a bit concerned about whatever the enemy is up to. He is simply going right ahead with His agenda. When really awful things are in our face, I am hearing Him say, "Ignore it."

So I am going back to the words He gave for this year 2013 because they are mandate to His church, His bride, the army of God. Remember the calendar-word of Isaiah 60:1-3 and Isaiah 61: 1-4.  Most of us have been so buffeted since January that we have been focusing on darkness, instead of what He is saying to us. It's time to turn back to this really important word He gave us for this year, and throw all our hearts into it, receiving it. "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord appears over you." and "The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor...to proclaim freedom fro the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor and the day of the vengeance of our God..."  Remember Joanne Stroud  boldly declaring for the year 2013 that we are to say "YES!" to those scriptures and know that we are it!  We are to receive the words that we are anointed to preach good news to the poor; we are anointed to set the captives free; we are anointed to declare the year of the Lord's favor. She warned us that we are going to get serious attacks for this word but we must keep our eyes not upon darkness but upon the Sovereign Lord. This is the year we are to press in and ask for MORE!  Let our passion rise up for Him. 

 

We are very new at this, but we do thank those who are sending donation to our new ministry - J Brushworks Ministry. For one thing, the donations are allowing us to print more books as God is getting these books, especially the Out of the Wilderness book, to go out to people who have not heard about these books before. And the prints and cards. Yesterday as I gave a private lesson to two sisters from Fallbrook and Hawaii, they asked about the "Out of the Wilderness" original painting on my wall and also the "Wild Bird" painting. Before you know it, I was telling them the stories. I gave each of them a "Wild Bird" card and as they were reading the story on the card they began to tear up. These women were so hungry for these painting words which point to the love of God.  Friendship was forged with them and we will see what else the Lord wants to do.

Please pray for this ministry through art "for such a time as this." (Esther 4:14)  More and more, through fire and water, Peter and I are realizing that our new ministry is being called to rise up and shine and He the Sovereign Lord is anointing us to preach good news to the poor and to proclaim freedom to the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners. And we are saying "YES!" to Him. We want more of Him! More passion for Him!

Sharing the word from the Lord - 2014 calendar.

Last year at this time the Lord sent two scriptures - Isaiah 60:1-3 and 61:1-4 to our Gatekeepers prayer group, which I wrote about on the 2013 calendar. Throughout 2013 I have experienced the Holy Spirit bringing me to these scriptures in so many ways and through many circumstances.  Today I take note that I had started the year 2013 in one way, and am ending this year with my life changed by these scriptures, particularly in the realm of creativity and joy in my teaching art. I am amazed by so many OMG! (Oh My God!) stories to tell! 


Well, the cycle has started again. Our Gatekeepers prayer group had our last meeting for this year and received three scriptures from the Lord for 2014. Already I find myself "eating" these scriptures (which is more than meditating)  as the anointing for doing so is strong. Here are the three verses:


Ephesians 3:20-21, "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."


I Corinthians 3:9-10, "'No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him' but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit."


Hebrew 11:1, "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."


The painting-word He is using for 2014 is "The River of Living Water Flowing in the Cavern of my heart in His heart." This is a painting the Lord sends to depict the verse "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us..."   Look at the painting and go deep into it to see what God sees of our hearts - through Christ He sees the river of gold, fire and water flowing powerfully through our hearts tucked in His heart. Gold stands for His glory and goodness; fire stands for passionate love from Him to us and us to Him, water stands for purity of our hearts cleansed by the blood of Jesus.  When we realize how God sees our hearts and how powerfully He is at work in our hearts as we go through the fire and water of life's experiences, we know our value to Him as His bride.


The enemy is creating more havoc and chaos in the earth and many hearts are stricken with fear, worries and depression. Whatever the media tells us life is about, the Lord is ushering you and me, His bride, to live more and more in the realm of eye has not seen, ear has not heard, mind has not conceived what God has prepared for those who love him. He is preparing a bride who will live with a sense of wonder. His church will become more astonished by His beauty and goodness. To quote Graham Cooke(www.BrilliantBookHouse.com ) "Our gift to the world is the revelation of the nature of God to us."  Goodness is the very nature of God.  At the cross our Savior Jesus declared, "It is finished!" because He has done everything needed to be done so we can live with the river of living water flowing through our hearts tucked into His heart. We get to receive the huge portion of His goodness with our names on it, and eat and grow strong even as we abide in the stance of faith.  "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."  (Hebrew 11:1)


With a twinkle in my eyes let me tell you some "immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine" news that are coming in - my 5-year nephew who lives in Los Angeles fell off a trailer cart that was carting customers to pick up their Christmas trees, and the cart went over his body. Yet doctors treating him could not find anything broken, exclaiming, "This is simply not possible that he is not hurt!" A Chinese lawyer in Los Angeles riddled with cancer was being prayed for at a church meeting. With no one pushing him, he fell background to the ground under the power of God (something he could never imagine experiencing before). When he went back to his doctor, all signs of cancer was gone.  For four years my husband has applied and applied for jobs, but there was no job for him. A few days before Christmas, out of the blue, he got an interview, and this one looks hopeful. Our neighbor who has been suffering from back pain for many years, went and bought a mattress called "Cloud" which I had recommended to her a few years ago. In four days time she was beside herself with joy that the pain is almost not noticeable anymore.  Love to hear your "immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine" news.


In this last week before 2014, the Lord has been getting me up in the night hours to pray for for those who have been oppressed by fear in their marriage, by a son or daughter's mental health, by the plight of God's people whose lives are endangered, etc.  I received these verses in Isaiah for you who are waiting for His deliverance: "Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you...Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away." (Isa.35:4,10)  *  "You will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gave you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teacher will be hidden no more; you will see them with your own eyes whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ear will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way, walk in it.'...He will send you rain for the seed you sow in the ground, and the food that comes from the land will be rich and plentiful." (Isa.30:19-21,23)  *  "See, the former things have taken place, and new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you." (Isa.42:9)"I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you, do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand...Do not be afraid, O worm Jacob, O little Israel, for I myself will help you, declares the Lord."(Isa.41:9-10,14)

Sharing the 2013 word from the Lord on a 1-year calendar.

2013 Prophetic Calendar

The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor...

to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor...(Isaiah 61:1-2)

 
At the start of December, I began to ask the Lord what was on His heart for 2013 calendar. From the plight of God's people, including our own, and that of our nation, it seemed the calendar should carry the paintings of the whirlpool of devastation and troubles with the four angelic horses pushing the world through the tunnel to see Jesus on the other side of the tunnel holding the child on His lap, as the child listens to His voice speaking Psalm 91 over him. (see www.jbrushwork.com , gallery #29 and 30 and to read the message)

This seemed to be the appropriate painting-words for 2013, but was it? 

I felt a heaviness on my heart for church and nation when on December 13, 2012, I took a trip to Oceanside in the northern region of San Diego county, to pray with the Gatekeepers led by pastor Joanne Stroud.  It is a very small strategic prayer group that hears His heartbeat and prays accordingly and knows ahead of time what He is doing, especially for the San Diego county. I walked into a blast of spiritual fresh air. Joanne had received two scripture passages from the Lord and she was having the group read these Scriptures.

Isaiah 60:1-3

Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, and his glory appears over you. Nations will come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your dawn.  Lift up your eyes and look about you. All assemble and come to you. Your sons come from afar, and your daughters are carried on the arm. Then you will look and be radiant, your heart will throb and swell with joy; the wealth on the seas will be brought to you, to you the riches of the nations will come.

Isaiah 61: 1 - 4
The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor and the day of the vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion, to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations.

Joanne was like a trainer, a coach, or a general in our face, saying "Say 'Yes'! Say 'Yes'! Say 'Yes'!  Receive it!  Know that we are 'it'. The glory of the Lord is on His people and we are not praying and hoping for that to come in - it is already in. We are anointed to preach good news to the poor, to those who mourn, to set the captives free.  This is the way we are to be positioned  as we receive the impact of the Holy Spirit upon each of us. We are keeping our eyes not upon darkness but upon the Sovereign Lord. We declare,'I am anointed. I am anointed.' We receive this word on behalf of the church, both individually and corporately.  We don't know what it will look like and how it will play out for each of us, even each church, but we know we don't want to miss it. Know that if you are willing to accept it, your DNA changes today, unless you allow the enemy to take it from you.  We are the in-Christ one. It is part of His over all plan that His bride is risen up proclaimng the year of the Lord's favor. The Lion of Judah roars over us - His power and authority imprinted upon our spirit. We are to cause the anointing to rise up in our innermost beings. Because the Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon us, therefore nothing is impossible for us.  Lord, help us to grasp this and to walk it out to impact others with it as we affect our family, our region, state, nation, the world."

It is not difficult for me to say "Yes" to this word, because 2012 has been a year of spiritual preparation for the bride of Christ to rise all the way up and shine. Yet it is one of God's great "suddenlies," a paradigm shift for the church, His bride.  Indeed, my excitement is that I am here to see the rising up of the warrior bride of Christ, "for such a time as this." (Esther 4:24)  Heaven's bells are ringing!

 Note: How the painting "Waterfall and Eagle" was painted:  In July of 2001, I was invited to get a painting from the Lord on the stage of a conference in San Diego, not knowing what I was to paint.  It happened that as soon as the worship team began to play and sing, and the dancers began to dance, I  knew I was  to paint an eagle taking off. The Holy Spirit spoke to me of this eagle, how it had been sitting on a bare branch for a long time, waiting for the branch to bud and the flowers to bloom, looking out to the waterfall, knowing that when the glory of the Lord shows up on the fall and on him, and the tree began to bud, that would be the sign for him to take off.  I believe that the timing of this painting-word which came in 2001 is for the year 2013. "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the Lord rises upon you." (Isaiah 60:1)
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A new (old) project to do for the Lord

written October 28, 2012

We serve a God who dictates time and season. Even as the election is in the next 10 days, this is the time He is reminding me to write my next art book. What?!  Listen to this!  On June 3, 2005, I wrote in my journal which is the first entry of my Out of the Wilderness, My Journey through Cancer and Cancerous Lies, book: "as I sit here by the ocean with my journal and Bible and pen, numbed and bewildered by the diagnosis of breast cancer, my spirit is hearing Him speak about a second art book He wants me to write...It would be about how to paint small animals, butterfly, crab, fruits and vegetables with childlike freedom and joy. What does this book have to do with my plight with cancer? I sensed Him answering thus: Jean, this book will be all about life. It is a celebration of life.Do you see why the enemy, Satan, wants you to focus on cancer and death?  It is because you are about to receive from Heaven the fragrance or 'nard' for life and life abundant. Every word, every stroke will bring down Heaven's fragrant 'nard' of life...Catch a whiff of the fragrance and you will catch Heaven's desire to impart life and life abundant...You have the power to write the book that speaks life and life abundant. You have the authority to command life and life abundant to come forth through the words you write and the paintings you paint. Life pulsates out of your words and your paintings as you live life abundantly. I am living inside you, and as you move and have your being in Me, My life will pulsate through you." 

It has been seven years since I wrote those words. For seven years I did not sense His anointing to write this second art book. In due course, I came to wonder if He was actually referring to my last book, Out of the Wilderness and not to an art book. I even considered taking that first entry out of my book.

Two weeks ago as I was getting ready to put together another art book with pumpkins, rabbit, fruits and vegetables for the use of a workshop I am doing in Fallbrook in a couple of weeks, I could not sleep all night. As I was restlessly prowling around the house, I took out my Out of the Wilderness book and started reading it. As I reread June 3rd entry and several more entries where He talked about the art book that is to bring down Heaven's desire to give life and life abundant, I knew that the time is NOW, because it is a prophetic word from seven years ago, asking me to do a prophetic act that is for this time, not only for our lives, but also for our nation.

In a month, December 1st, I will be doing a whole day workshop on healing at the Pasadena International House of Prayer (PIHOP). Today, end of October, they are having the national directors of Healing Rooms do a workshop on healing.  My session is the next in line. I said to God, "Are you kidding?  What do I have to say about healing!"  I believe He is saying, "Plenty!" It won't be about training people to pray for healing, but it would be to share on the stance of the bride of Christ to combat the spirit of infirmity - how she embraces life and life abundant, how her mind is being transformed into the mind of Christ as she thinks on whatever is true and lovely and beautiful and excellent and praiseworthy.(Philippians 4:8) - all that He has been painstakingly speaking into me in the cavern of my heart tucked in the cavern of His heart. Please pray  for me so I will not be distracted. 

An interesting God-news.  My one and only copy of a paperback bound book of  The Rising Up of the Warrior Bride of Christ, A Prophetic Journey, which was hidden from me for many years, is on its way to the federal penitentiary, to be read by a brother in the Lord who is in total solitary confinement for 20  some years and not allowed to have any communication with the outside world except with his immediate family. The Lord has been visiting him and speaking to him and transporting him out of the walls of the prison to do His assignments in different parts of the world - yes, much like Philip who was transported to the desert to minister to the eunuch who was studying the book of Isaiah. He is starting to paint, and his ex-chaplain who is not allowed to write with him, found my website and ordered my book so he can learn about prophetic art. Pray that this book will reach his hand in good time (normally it would be two months before he gets his mail). Pray for the release of the anointing of these painting-words to come upon him. Perchance there be a transference of the prophetic anointing that was on me to him. Amen!    

 

Hallelujah! one more upgrade adventure!

written October 8, 2012

Had no idea that my making it to the Aglow National Conference in Ontario (almost 2 hours away from SD) this past Friday and Saturday would be so critical to my cough/no voice syndrome plus receiving a key word for all of us. He is an amazing God!

Each of the last three adventures - to Pasadena International House of Prayer (PIHOP) to speak on creativity and joy, to the Chinese fellowship in Glendale, and the unplanned trip to the Aglow conference with me still coughing and unable to speak - were "dire straits," or narrow paths that were risky and so uncomfortable, except that by God's grace I stayed on course. Now I already see in my spirit that the fruits, the rewards are HUGE. Thank you for praying for me to make these trips and not to say "No" to God because they are not sensible or smart. Thank God! Thank God! Thank God!

Quickly, about the cough and the loss of voice syndrome. When I rose 10 ft. tall as the fearless warrior bride to speak to my fellow Chinese in Los Angeles, and my voice came forth from my belly full of the Holy Spirit, I really believed that the cough would go away after my talk and my voice returned to normal. But it was not so! I continued to cough and to have no voice. I was miserable and disappointed. In the days following my cough got worse. My every thought was about my symptoms. How could that be when I experienced His miracle at the fellowship? It's not just about the cough and no voice, it was really more about all the prayers from the saints and the faith and the conquering spirit in me that triumphed over circumstances and sickness. The detective part of my spirit knew something was amiss. What was it!  The night before the trip to Aglow conference I could not sleep. I said to God," What hapened to me, God? How did I go from a 10 ft. tall warrior bride to a victim-like person? What went wrong, God? This was not supposed to be my story."

Then the Lord showd me what really happened after my talk: I got careless and from there went into pity party and worry.  I was miffed at God for not healing my cough and voice. That opened the door for the enemy to whisper to me, "Poor Jean! You even had to teach your classes when you had no voice because you needed the income. So sad. Look at your circumstance now - you no longer have the option to be sick anymore. Is God really taking care of your needs?" I woke up to the ploy of the enemy when I could "hear" what he was really saying to me and I was agreeing with. Quickly I asked God to forgive me and I put everything back into His hands - cough, no voice, tiredness and whatever His timing was for healing me. I even began to thank Him for the cough, knowing that He would turn everything to good, even the cough.

On the last session where Graham Cooke spoke, because of my cough(where I have had to run to the restroom due to the coughs), I chose to go to the overflow room where there was practically nobody but me. As Graham began to speak, he chit-chatted with us. Suddenly, out of the blue, I heard him say,"Yeah! Yesterday I felt my voice come under attack. I said to myself, Well, when the enemy attacks my voice, it must mean that he is deadly scared of what I am about to say."  Just like that, I knew the why of my cough and the loss of voice. I knew it has to do with my speaking on the ancient Chinese written words!  The enemy tried to stop me from going to the Chinese fellowship to speak, but failed to do so. That is nothing compared to what God is showing me about the Chinese characters (in C.H. Kang's book on The Discovery of Genesis) that has to do with the creation of the WOMAN out of the rib of the MAN, and the ensuing life of companionship of this woman and this man. I already know He is about to show me something so key, so fundamental about MARRIAGE through those characters our ancients had invented about the life of the TWO humans in that garden. So many characters were about TWO people, not three, not a group, but always, TWO humans. I actually have been waiting to get done with the three out-of-town assignments so I can hide away and listen to Him showing me about the Garden marriage through these characters. It will be a part of  the NEW MAN-NEW MARRIAGE He wants me to write on.

Now hear this. After the Graham Cooke's session, I walked out to meet up with streams of people coming out of the auditorium.  I ran into Pastor Mike Hubbard from Oceanside. We stopped and talked for a few minutes.  He asked me a strange question. "Jean, can you help me out?  I am going to Fuzhow to speak to Chinese men about marriage. I need to have some Chinese characters about marriage."  I looked at him and said, "Interesting you should ask. I am about to write (a book) about such Chinese characters ( which will cast light on God's thought on marriage)"  I know that Mike does not know about Kang's book on Discovery of Genesis, How the Truths Were Found Hidden in the Chinese Language." He just wanted some Chinese calligraphy written for him. But this is what the enemy is scared of. To this day, in China, women are still minority and are abused and mistreated by their husbands, even Christian men. It is culturally acceptable. The enemy cannot afford for me to discover what God wants to show me, and for me to write His revelation down and to share with my readers who pray and also with Mike who is going to China to teach and retrain the Chinese men in their thinking about women and their treatments of their wives. It is important that we identify the ploy of the enemy and expose him, because it renders null and void his wile and scheme against us. 

I want to write so badly about what Graham shared on UPGRADES but it will have to be another report. But let me just slip this in for now-please know that upgrades from God for His people are super important in this day and time. Every time we release all of our fears and worries and anger and bitterness and discouragement and low self-esteem, etc.etc. to God, really, really let them go into His hands, the Holy Spirit is free to give us upgrades from the Father for our lives. Upgrades come from our standing between God the Father and God the Son as they converse and love on each other and we get to receive their joy and peace and thoughts and plans. The Holy Spirit just smile ear to ear as He keep us in that position of love. Also, He gets to take us on adventures to do mighty deeds with Him and for Him.

My eyes are opened now. What I have shared with you in these three emails are my choosing to release my fears and worries to God and the resulting UPGRADES or adventures or creativity and joy I got in return. They were 10-fold, 40-fold, 90-fold kingdom rewards or fruits. It is so important that more and more of God's people release every single one of our worries and fears and issues to Him, even name them one by one, and drop them into Jesus' lap, and not go back to take them back into our own hands again. Then and only then, when we are free to receive His love, He can give us our upgrades. Oh the joy of going into adventures with Him, and bringing back so much fruits!

Adventure into "Creativity and Joy"

written September 6, 2012

Psalm 118

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his loves endures forever...

In my anguish I cried to the Lord, and He answered by setting me free...

They surrounded me on every side, but in the name of the Lord I cut them off.

They swarmed around me like bees, but the Lord helped me.

I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me.

The Lord is my strength and my song;

he has become my salvation.

Shouts of joy and victory resound in the tents of the righteous:

"The Lord's right hand is lifted high; the Lord's right hand has done a mighty thing."

I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.

The Lord has chastened me severely, but he has not given me over to death.

It was testing and training the whole way for going to do the workshop at Pasadena International House of Prayer (PIHOP).The enemy continued to hit, but the Lord continued to train. I was in the school of the overcomer, and this assignment was pretty high level and God had to train me well to handle this. I was going through what Chuck Pierce calls "dire strait." That's what you and I are experiencing in so many ways. Such a tiny opening and guarded by the enemy, but we must get through that dire passage to get to the next portion of our destiny, the next clearing where we can "see" what is up ahead for us. So important.

But God met me in those dire passages. In the last three days before the workshop on September 1st, I got three painting-words that I was to bring to the workshop. First it was the "Mountain of God" which came the next morning after my heart palpitation episode. This came with passages from Revelation that were given to me to eat. That morning I was stuck with five dilemmas in my life and I was hearing Him tell me, "You come up higher and I will show you what must take place after this." It is climbing higher to be with Him, with nothing but being on a rock, face to face with Him, and singing the song of the overcomer. I knew in my spirit that things looked bad, but if I go up there to hang out with Him, I will KNOW. I proceeded to know by faith that all is well with everyone of those five dilemmas. Wow!

Sensing my weakness, I cried out to God to help me. He answered me by the following passages. Rev. 1:17: "Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive forever and ever. And I hold the keys of death and Hades. Write (or declare, or dance, or sing, etc.) therefore, what you have seen, what is now and what will take place later. 

Next I got Rev. 2:7, "To him that overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life." ( I know that is why God keeps training me in the school of the overcomer, so that I will be kept alive by eating from the tree of life, and I believe that these painting-words are fruits from the Tree of Life and I have been kept alive by these painting-words, with special reference to cancer.)

Revelation 3:7 follows: "What he opens no one can shut and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name." (That speaks clearly to me because I know that on my part all I have is that I have kept His word and not denied His name. That is my two fish and five loaves of bread or my 1% to His 99% in the scheme of things.)

Revelation 3:11, "Hold on to what you have, so no one can take your crown."  (His training is strengthening my arms so I can hold on to what He has given me and not allow the enemy to rob, steal and kill. It is the warrior bride stance that He is developing in all of us. No more limpy arms, and victim-like mentality.)

During another midnight of hanging out with the Lord, Revelation 12 was given. He was giving me the interpretation about the woman who was giving birth and the dragon who was waiting to devour the child. The woman was the church, and she was about to give birth to "creativity and joy." It is the rising up of an army of creative people. Yes! Yes! an army of passionately creative people who are hearing, hearing, hearing from the Throne Room and receiving ideas, formulas, visions, sound, cures, inventions straight from the Creator God. Thus, a second painting-word was added to bring to PIHOP- the Tidal Wave 2. He was saying to us that this next tidal wave will not be like The Call tidal wave of 2001. Rather, this tidal wave will bring in the Renaissance period with an outpouring of creativity and joy unlike anything we have seen or heard or imagined, thus sweeping many into the kingdom of God. 

As an aside, let me share a story of my teaching art. For the last 4 years or so, God has been coming to my Chinese brush painting classes. Before that, I was burned out teaching a bunch of atheists, intellectuals, new-agers, eastern religion proponents.I wanted to quit teaching. But He said He would come to my classes if I continued to teach.  From then on my classes became the joy of my life. When I was teaching and demonstrating, I would see my students listening with such focus, sometimes with tears brimming their eyes. I could not preach about Jesus, but Jesus was giving them kingdom principles. I was able to take these pre-believers to underground passages and show them how to paint from deep within the caverns of their hearts. I took note that my students were turning into children who laugh and play in His Garden. These are people who would not step into a church, nor hold a Bible, but God is preparing to sweep them one day into His kingdom through the outpouring of creativity and joy.

On Friday, August 31st, the Lord revealed that the third word I was to share at PIHOP was the "Sunflower" painting-word. This painting was the second one that God gave me in 1993. It was about joy.  The scripture was "anointing you with the oil of joy."(Psalm 45:7).  I saw a vision of a heart with a stout white pipeline stuck on its side pointing up to heaven. The Lord said to me at that time, "I am pouring out the oil of joy into your heart and the heart of my people. This joy is not of the earth, but purely of heaven." Yet, at 1:30 AM of Sept.1, I was up asking the Lord how was I going to speak about joy when I rarely feel joy. Creativity, yes, but not joy. People with my background in depression do not experience joy very often. Yet at the night hour I felt as if I was going through a birthing experience. I was groaning and rocking in the spirit participating in something His Spirit was doing. It was a deep experience that was more than I could comprehend. I knew then that my going to PIHOP was to birth something important in the spirit, with the help of those who would attend the workshop.

As we drove up to Pasadena, I was so tired from lack of sleep and all the warfare. I told God, "Look!  I don't have an ounce of strength left to do a 21/2 hour workshop. But I give You all I have."  As soon as I stepped through the doorway of PIHOP, all tiredness left. There was so much peace in that building. I felt spiritual energy flowing into me. Gone was any thought of warfare or concern of any sort. All I can tell you is that I sensed such presence of the Holy Spirit the whole time I was speaking. I never had time and energy to organize my talk, so I simply flowed with the Spirit and it was great. I felt so safe there with these people I had never met before. I felt so confident and sure-footed as a mountain goat. I took my time developing the thoughts from the Lord, point by point.  I got to share everything the Holy Spirit entrusted me to share. What luxury to have that kind of ease in sharing His kingdom thoughts with fellow lovers of God.  After my talk we went into prayer. Then I got to pray for a lot of people there. Just about everyone was connecting with God in deep ways, with tears flowing down their faces. We were full of joy.

 Psalm 126 is what happened to us there:

When the Lord brought back the captive to Zion,

we were like men who dreamed. Our mouths were filled with laughter,

our tonues with songs of joy.

Then it was said among the nations,

"The Lord has done great things for them."

The Lord has done great things for us,

and we are filled with joy.

Restore our fortunes, O Lord,

like streams in the Negev.

Those who sow in tears

will reap with songs of joy.

He who goes out weeping,

carrying seeds to sow,

will return with songs of joy,

carrying sheaves with him.

Testing and Training for Authority

written on August 1, 2012

In January a friend forwarded Bill Burns word for the year 2012, and now I realize that what I have experienced in the last eight months  has been exactly what Bill wrote to the bride of Christ. See below:

"You have been taught My word, and My ways have been revealed to you by the spirit of truth. You have been equipped by the spirit of power as you have embraced the gifts of the Spirit and have believed that you can operate in these. And now you are entering a time of testing so that you can apply that which you have learned and that which you have received. In this season you can pass the tests that come by using the authority that you have been given. Luke 10:19 says, 'Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you.' These tests will strengthen you and will teach you responsibility and integrity.  They will equip you to be more than conquerors and enable you to be overcomers. This is an important season in which I am preparing My people to become a glorious church.  It is a season in which you must live by My prophetic and written word. You must now learn to apply by faith My words to every test, and if you do so, you will have victory and reason for celebration. Present vision will be established as you embrace the challenges of this season. Rejoice and be glad for the time of the victory and the Day of My power is at hand, says the Lord."  (Bill Burns, "2012- a Year of Discovery, part 2) in "The Trumpet" (12/5/11)

For me this is indeed the year of testing and training for authority. It comes with unrelenting assault and oppression. Chuck Pierce calls it "dire strait" or "narrow place." He wrote that many are facing circumstances which have the potential to create devastation, but we must choose life over unbelief. For those who read my July 9th report about "Boiler Room" and "Warrior bride knight", this is the third word I had wanted to share with you.

On July 5th, I woke up in the night hours with very heavy heart and went to sit with the Lord. Psalm 18:4 described how I felt: "The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me." It was not "death" but doubts of hearing God correctly. In truth it was not really me, but the devil was pushing me to doubt my ability to hear God's voice. At that critical moment, a vision came to me: I "saw" the electrode of my heart zipped from the normal track to the abnormal track signaling that the dreaded heart palpitation (SVT) was starting (this being a condition I suffered for many years) Normally when SVT starts, I would lie still for hours and pray and wait and see if my heart would convert back to normal heartbeat. However, I would end up going to Urgent Care for help. 

But NOT this time. I have been hearing from God about the enemy's ploy called "dilemma" where the bride of Christ would be driven to distraction cannot tell which of the two courses/two paths/two understandings/two words from the Lord, both sounding like God - which was God and which was pseudo God.It would all be so tricky and almost identical and both would seem good, only underneath one would be false and the other is true. 

God has been training me to discern the spirits, which is no longer easy to discern because of the time we are in when darkness and light seem to blur. God has also been showing me that some seemingly physical health manifestations are actually not real health problems but demonically inspired wiles and scheme. If they are not real, then they must be fought at a spiritual level. I watched the way these SVT have been happening so often to me from January to March, causing so much anguish and self-doubt -  if God already said I was healed, yet I continued to have SVT, then did God really say I was healed or did I hear wrong? What God is training me to look for is what is in it for the enemy.  I see how in many cases he is using these physical health problems to weary the bride so that we don't have peace and joy. We are distracted and confounded and worried as seemingly one health problem leads to discovery of another one, and another one.

In my case I saw how I had become a shadow of who I was, so afraid that SVT might show up when I was driving to Los Angeles, or when I get up in the morning and all of a sudden my heart would go into SVT. Thus that fateful night on July 5th, when SVT got started and God gave me that quick vision of my heart switching from normal track to abnormal track, my spirit was ready to fight the assault. I sprang forth from the chair like a soldier facing an enemy in the house. I whipped out my weapon and went on the assault against the enemy. I put my hand on my heart and I declared with great authority (although not loudly as Peter was sleeping), "No weapons forged against my heart will succeed." "By His stripes my heart is healed." There was no double-mindedness as I commanded my heart/mind/emotion/body to be one to agree with God that He has healed me of SVT and to tell SVT to be gone in Jesus' name. I even talked to my heart as if it were a person: "Rest, heart!  Do not fear! Remember Jesus is holding you in His hand."  Heart palpitation obeyed and went away!

Yes, SVT had become so bad and occuring so often that I was eager to have the procedure done on my heart where they would burn the abnormal path. It would have been easier, so much easier if I just get the procedure done, instead of waiting to see what was on God's mind concerning this matter. But I knew in my heart of hearts that if God tells me He has healed me, then I prefer to find out why I was still having SVT and I would prefer to overcome whatever scheme the enemy has so that I can gain more authority in the realm of healing.  So, in the end I cancelled the appointment for the procedure and chose to go this route because I know that the spiritual gain is huge. I am not saying this is for everyone. Each person needs to find out what the Lord is saying to her/him. I have a friend who wanted to go the supernatural route with cancer but God told her to go the medical route. She is a mighty warrior who prays for healing.

What the enemy is after is for me to deny that I hear God rightly or that those reports I write are from God, such as "All is well!"  and other reports I have sent to you. Once I deny that I hear God correctly than he can fool around with my mind, and I won't be able to write the next book. Very clever. That day after I fought and won over SVT I heard the Holy Spirit say to me, "You must not give away any word that I have given you. You have to stand and hang on tightly to what I give you.  Do not doubt. If you doubt, the enemy will rob you and Peter of what you wrote concerning your destiny together. Do you understand?"  I understood as I never did before.  I asked His forgiveness for often giving in to doubts which probably came out of a sense of unworthiness and passivity and fear of man (a very acceptable Chinese attribute of 'modesty' and submitting to one's lot). 

This time, I fought and won!  SVT disappeared. Three more times when I was in a dilemma and fear was encroaching on my heart, SVT would get started, but I took the offensive and assaulted the enemy and each time it would shrivel up and leave.  Just like cancer, after I was healed of it, there were two separate occasions when the doctors believed cancer had come back. I started to go into fear and turmoil but fought and fought in the cavern of my heart in His heart until I heard God say, "It's OK.Jean. You can rest now. Cancer has not come back!" Since then I no longer bother with the issue of cancer. I notice it is the same with SVT. Three times it came back, or so it seems, scaring and confusing me, but after I got the vision and went on the offensive, I no longer fear it, and I believe the issue is closed. 

This is testing and training in authority. Something that someone like me has taken a whole lifetime to learn to do. But God has not left me behind.  I am a warrior now just like you are, and we are rising up to be a fighting unit, "for such a time as this," (Esther 4:14)

August 2, 2012

No sooner had I enjoyed victory over SVT then I entered the month of July, a month of unbelievable oppression. Circumstances came in one after another with the intend to drag me back into the miry pit of depression, which was a mental and emotional problem I lived with since childhood. Voices hounded me day and night and actual events or circumstances made me question my worth, my character and even my identity.  At the same time it has become clearer and clearer that the Lord is writing the next book which I am receiving down here. Yet I have been buffeted with vexation tearing me down and bringing up all my past issues of depression. Here I am, supposed to be hearing from the Lord about "new man-new marriage" but it seemed that Peter and I are more at odds with each other.  I sought help from the Lord and He would direct me to read certain portions of my book Out of the Wilderness and from what I wrote seven years ago He would speak clearly to me. I asked prayer from trustworthy intercessors and received validation and encouragement.  I would receive relief and clarification but could not keep them. Over and over the hot howling wind of vexation would come over me.

The night before last night I stayed up to 2:00 AM begging the Lord to take away the assignment to write another book for Him.  I have two amazing invitations to do workshops on "creativity and joy" in September and a whole day workshop on "healing" in December for Pasadena IHOP,but I no longer believed I was capable to handle such assignments. Underneath in my psyche fear has come back to take residence - great fear of failure, fear of losing everything, fear of losing the respect of others, and worse, fear of losing the anointing from the Lord.  I felt so defeated and so weak it seemed like another lifetime ago when I took authority over the fear of SVT and won. Yet it was only a month or so ago that I had won that critical war. What has happened to me!?  I had no strength to fight. What authority? What boldness?

I woke up before 6:00 AM yesterday morning, and once again I felt the spirits of oppression gathering around ready to assault me, as it had done for over a month. As I felt the anguish filling my heart once again, I also felt my heart moving into SVT ready to go into heart palpitation. In that split second, righteous anger filled my heart. God has trained me well to take authority over the SVT, but to take authority over emotional and mental assault - that's something still not quite worked into me. However, I knew I have to get it this time! I cannot allow this assault to continue! Without missing a beat the warrior bride spirit in me rose up ten-story high to declare that "No weapons forged against me will succeed,"  "Not by might nor by power but by My Spirit, says the Lord of Host," that "If God is for me who can be against me."  Only this time it was not SVT, but it was the spirits of depression, fear of man, doubts and unbelief, confusion and anger and vexation, the spirit of disunity with Peter.  I saw myself, felt myself, heard myself told all these oppressing spirits to be gone in Jesus' name, out of our house, out of my marriage. I was very thorough. I was like a lioness. There was no fooling around with me. In fact, a funny picture came to mind. I saw myself as the Green Hulk in the Avengers movie. Boy!  I can see the enemy scattered whichever way. So furious was I. The boldness of the Holy Spirit in me. I did all that while still lying in bed. When I got out of bed and walked about, I knew that those spirits were gone. For the first day in a month I had a great sense of well-being and sound mind and steady emotion. 

Wow!  Can you see each of us doing that? That is the true power that the bride of Christ has in fighting the evil one, by our taking authority in Jesus' name and by the blood of the Lamb. We declare Revelation 12:11 that "They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death." Amen and amen."